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Too much, and the wrong foods, have left me tired, drained,
stuffed. I just feel drowsy now. and
uncomfortable. after eating every wrong thing so far today. The worst thing is not only am I feeling low;
I want more junk food to pump me back up.
I have so many things I want to do today. Now I can hardly
keep my eyes open. All I want to do is
lay down, and sleep. The thing is, I
didn’t really need, or like, or enjoy what I had. I likely would have enjoyed having far healthier
foods more, and I would be feeling better.
Blah!
Some times after I over eat I ask myself “Why did you just
do that?” Why did I just stuff myself
with food; I neither enjoyed nor needed?
Obviously my body did not require it.
I did have healthier options.
What is going on? Is it self
hate? What about Emotional eating? Eating out of fear or needing to hide. Did I eat it because, I have enjoyed that
food in the past? Or did I just need an
energy boost?
No matter the cause, it is important to recognize that I ate
crap, and I feel like crap, and I can do better. If I focus on the end results rather then the
initial impulse it may help. Besides
that I need to stop with the ‘just one last day’ stuff. You know the ‘I’ll just finish this junk food
I have left.’ I’ll eat healthier
tomorrow. There’s always another
tomorrow. Sometimes I think I may do
this just so I don’t get started and I don’t fail.
If I don’t start I don’t fail. But I started a long time ago, this body did
not just appear overnight. It’s not
going to just idle in the drive way till I get around to fueling
it
properly. I am doing it. I am doing it now. Each time I mess up I have an opportunity to
do it right. Every time I fall down, I
can get back up. Unless I leave it till
it’s too late. So I’m working my energy
back up and, I am not going for a cookie.
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