Ta Da!

Ta Da!

  A ‘new start’ for a new year.  I waited for the holidays to be over before I began.  What am I beginning?  A whole year of getting in shape and losing weight.  I’m weighing in at 271 to start.  My heaviest point was 294, luckily that was only for a short time.  Over the past few years my weight had stayed around 284lbs or hugemondous for some one who is 5’2”.

This year is about facing the challenge and living healthier.  I had always believed in fitness but strayed far away from it.  I was in excellent shape until my late 20’s almost a half a life time ago then depression, medicine, failed logic, emotional, and psychological eating and using weight as protection took its toll.

I’ve figured a lot of it out, the reasons I had for being and staying fat.   Like using excess weight to hide from the world, using carbohydrates to boost my brain and energy, and eating because of emotions and for amusement.
  

I have tried various methods over various years to lose weight.  So why will this time be successful?  Because I am ready.  Because I have looked at the priorities and passions of my life and what I want my life to be and being morbidly obese does not fit with any of them.

In the past I always enjoyed challenges.  This is my challenge get fit and healthy in 2016  I want to skate and ski and right now I can’t, not just because the weather has been in the -40s but because I’m to fat.  I want to travel again and be a better role model for my teens.  I want to be comfortable in my own skin. 

I want to have a partner in my life and I don’t think I would want one who would want me as I am.  I know that sounds harsh and this is not everyone’s truth but it is mine.  There are many larger women and men who are in happy relationships or just happy as they are.  That’s all good, it’s just not where I am.  Of course if I found a wonderful person who wanted to get fit and healthy with me, well, that would be all sorts of awesome.

Today is my first day and my first day is starting well.  I have already faced a lot of temptations but stayed on track.  I’m feeling pretty proud and motivated.  If anyone wants to join me in this at any time please do.  

 Welcome to day one.